NiGhT oF cHaNgE

So, yesterday was pretty crazy for the good 'ol heart. It's fixed now though so WHOOP WHOOP. I went to a musical theatre party which was pretty fun. Then, April and I left to go to Chris and Kevin's apartment to play video games. That didn't happen. April had a long discussion with her ex-b/f on the phone so I fell a sleep for a little while. I woke up and suddenly our plans changed to sneaking into the Sheraton and finding a place to wait and watch the sunrise. So, we got it and got to the 28th floor where there was a 360 view of downtown Nashville. So, we ended up sitting in seperate places. This is how I came to find my place inside and fixed my broken self. As I watched the lights, some pulsing & others constantly lit, I saw an orchestra of lights playing this beautiful song. Like I would look at the different groups of pulses, made sounds for them in my mind, and had my own beautiful orchestra only I could enjoy. I was in such an awesome place. So I found every way of looking at the world below by going on this pillar like object by standing so I was almost head to head with the ceiling and looking out, which was amazing, and laying on my stomach w/ my arms stretched out and resting on the window sill, equally amazing. The mix of silence and array of lights helped put me in a relaxed state I haven't been in since I got here. So, during this time it was like a voice in me was telling me to examine myself. Not the negatives that I noticed lately in my self-evaluation, but the stuff that made me, me. The components that made me interesting and different and I was able to see how important I really was and that somewhere was someone who would appreciate those things. It was exactly what I needed. It was as if God finally answered my desperate prayers. I've been beaming inside since. I told my roommates and they were really glad because even they worried about how I was doing. So, that's all. I then had my hour and a half of sleep and went to church to have some Jesus time which would have went better if I was more conscious, but was great anyway. After brunch I went to Bongo Jave and got me some coffee and now I shall go do some serious homework. I hope all is well with everyone else and I just thought I'd write about this because it's awesome to me. Keep smilin' and God Bless.