ClOsE 2 pErFeCt

That is my life right at this moment. Close to perfect. My mom sent me homemade cookies, I won a twenty dollar Walmart giftcard in a costume contest, my solo in seminar was canceled, I found out one of my favorite recording artists is having a concert in Nashville in December and there is a REAL possibility my mom and I are going, and I am so comfortable right now. Now, I am not saying I don't have alot going on or nothing in my life is unpleasant. But, all that is out weighed. That's why life is CLOSE to perfect. *sigh* How lovely. Also, I have found myself becoming quite the comedian to my friends. Oh, and in Bible study I gave my testimony for the first time in my life and it went pretty well. I feel such a connection with those girls now. It's amazing. A weight has been lifted. Anyway, that's what's going on in my world. Hope all is well in yours. In case I don't get to say it later HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! Love ya. Bye. :)

YaY 4 JeSuS

Yeah, so with God's help I enjoyed a rough and crazy Monday. A big AMEN from me. Plus, I had an awesome bible study tonight. It was enlightening. However, next week I am giving my testimony. I am not sure why I volunteered, a part of me just felt I should. I'm so nervous. Most of the ppl begin with something like "I was blessed to grow up in a Christian home". heh Yeah, mine, not so much. So I will definately be a different story. I'm so nervous. My story is sort of crazy and depressing at times. There are some pretty uplifting parts though. *sigh* I'm giving it to God though. I know there is a reason I need to tell my story. Anyway, I've decided if I die young it will be because of the caf food. It's eating at me and I'm tired of trying to digest it. *yuck* Well, I'm going to work on my research paper a bit and hit the hay. Hope everyone's live's are doing well and remember, if ya need help the big man upstairs is always there. So, am I. :) And I'm willing to lend a shoulder if need be. God bless and sweet dreams.

Also, we are doing this incredible dance for "Generations". Whoop whoop!

NiGhT oF cHaNgE

So, yesterday was pretty crazy for the good 'ol heart. It's fixed now though so WHOOP WHOOP. I went to a musical theatre party which was pretty fun. Then, April and I left to go to Chris and Kevin's apartment to play video games. That didn't happen. April had a long discussion with her ex-b/f on the phone so I fell a sleep for a little while. I woke up and suddenly our plans changed to sneaking into the Sheraton and finding a place to wait and watch the sunrise. So, we got it and got to the 28th floor where there was a 360 view of downtown Nashville. So, we ended up sitting in seperate places. This is how I came to find my place inside and fixed my broken self. As I watched the lights, some pulsing & others constantly lit, I saw an orchestra of lights playing this beautiful song. Like I would look at the different groups of pulses, made sounds for them in my mind, and had my own beautiful orchestra only I could enjoy. I was in such an awesome place. So I found every way of looking at the world below by going on this pillar like object by standing so I was almost head to head with the ceiling and looking out, which was amazing, and laying on my stomach w/ my arms stretched out and resting on the window sill, equally amazing. The mix of silence and array of lights helped put me in a relaxed state I haven't been in since I got here. So, during this time it was like a voice in me was telling me to examine myself. Not the negatives that I noticed lately in my self-evaluation, but the stuff that made me, me. The components that made me interesting and different and I was able to see how important I really was and that somewhere was someone who would appreciate those things. It was exactly what I needed. It was as if God finally answered my desperate prayers. I've been beaming inside since. I told my roommates and they were really glad because even they worried about how I was doing. So, that's all. I then had my hour and a half of sleep and went to church to have some Jesus time which would have went better if I was more conscious, but was great anyway. After brunch I went to Bongo Jave and got me some coffee and now I shall go do some serious homework. I hope all is well with everyone else and I just thought I'd write about this because it's awesome to me. Keep smilin' and God Bless.

WoW mOnDaY

Yeah, so today went okay and I had me some tea. *yummy* I got my mom's pharmaceutical package for my cold. *smile* I'm in love with reggae music right now, because I like the flow of it. It makes me happy and chill. I have bible study tonight so that is awesome. I love getting some Jesus time on the most hectic day of the week. Good start. Plus, at times I find that I try to keep too much control when I need to just give it to the him. He knows what he's doin'. :) I can't wait to go home in 9 days!!!! Get me some video game play, hugs, furry animal hugs, and see my buds in high school. Anyway, I'm going to work on my papers and such. So, adios and wish me luck because my roommate is PMSing to the max and, well, it's scary. Like Carrie or something. :)

YaHoOooo....ZzZzZz

Yeah, so boring day and then I thought we should call Noah. Wait I should start at the beginning. SO, I slept in until 10-ish which was marvelous. My roommates got in a lil scuffle and I became uncomfortable and awkward. I try and help both separately with their problems at breakfast, mmm waffles. April, Katie, and I go to Bellevue mall to order my contacts. Steph, or I, have to stop at a gas station because mapquest gave me an add. That does not exist. My friends got icees and a twix king size while I got directions from some friendly country folk. We go to the way out there mall. I order my contacts. April buys an $11 dollar pair of jeans, which would be all the purchases because she left her credit card at our dorm. So, April feels better. YAYAYAY! I realize that tonight we have to do something other than sit in our dorm. We are pent up with energy. So, I say lets call Noah. We call Noah and plan to come over. Later we find that Britt wants to go to the Disco. April and I are not disco. Britt has had a bad weekend. I tell her to go to the dance and we help her get sizzlin' for the event. We get closer as roommates as we help each other through each others frustrations, depressions, homesickness, and hormones. LOL So this is where the REAL fun starts. So, April an I go to Noah's. He's not there immediately so we sit in the car and jam to "You and me baby aint nothin' but mammals" (don't know the title), "Shake it Off", and "Chariot". Good songs. Noah, Chris, and Kevin arrive. We watch a quick end to last seasons "America's Next Top Model" and half an episode of "Punk'd". We leave, and go to Hard Rock Cafe where I spent money I didn't need to spend, nor probably have. We then left and wandered around Downtown Nashville in which one of our stops was a quaint little ice cream shop with a live country singer. It was brilliant. We then left and went to Chris and Kevin's place where we played Melee and Halo II and listened to them play guitar until 5 am. April and I fell asleep to the serene guitar strums. It was nice and relaxing and I thoroughly enjoyed it. However, I must now go to sleep for church tom. So goodnight and pray for my alertness tom. morning. LOL

BrIgHt FuTuRe

So thank GOD, honestly, I'm going home for fall break from Oct. 13-16! PRAISE JESUS!!! I need it. I miss my mom. I miss my animals. That includes my brother. LOL J/K But really, I miss playing Gamecube with my brother. Monday I am getting a care package with cold supplies to help me get well. My mom should win a friggin' award for best mom EVER!!!! My roommates are the party type so I don't see them sitting in here and caring for me. Ofcourse, I have that kind of motherly quality so I tend to do that for everyone and end up expecting it in return. Cause I'll tell ya what, when my mom gets sick or has a problem I take care of her. It's only fair. But, I'm not complaining, because I know that I expect to much from college freshman ready to get their groove on at any cost. I prefer a relaxing night in mostly. Because, when I get them it's amazing. :) Nathan, I'm sure you understand that point. So I'm going to go to bed and pray that in a short amount of time I will be rid of my plugged nose, crummy throat, plugged ears, and sinus headaches. Yes, my body is crumbling. So tomorrow I go to the store and buy Echinaecia with rosehips and vitamin C and other vitamins to build a better me. :) Night and I wish everyone a good weekend.