DePrEsSeD

So, I have come to a point where I am depressed. All is downhill seeming and nothing bright and glimmery. I feel alone, like I am the odd man out. Not to say that I am being left out. I'm confused and overloaded with work and dates and times. I'm having trouble sorting things out. I'm dealing with my problems, my friends problems, my family's problems..... I just feel a little out of control. I don't want to bring others down so I fake a grin or shake it off. I need a break. I plan on going home in October during fall break, but it feels to long. Centuries away. I miss my animals. I saw a puppy tied outside of a restauraunt today and was almost late for class because I did not want to quit playing with him. I'm tired of my friends pressure to find a boy. WHO CARES? I'm at a "Christian" based school, however half the people are pretending for the school board. Then, as soon as theirs peers come along, whoo-hoo all bets are off. *sigh* I can't explain how low and empty I feel. I'm sure it's normal, but I don't need this kind of despair. Anyway, I better go because I think this is only making things worse. Thanks for listening. Sorry if it's a downer. Good night.