Kinda sleepy, but not ready for bed. Lots on my mind. I have an audition coming up next weekend at Belmont. I'm nervour on so many levels. I really want to go to Belmont and this is my chance. I'm afraid I won't be good enough. I won't sing the right notes, I won't act like Antigone, or I won't be able to do one move of dance practice. Ugh, there's something about approaching your future that can feel like being at the highest peak of a roller coaster, when you first start to fall, and your stomache goes into your throat and you can't breathe, and you want to scream, but your too busy wondering if you'll make it out alive. Weird analogy, huh? Atleast, that's how I feel about. I only have two more voice lessons until my audition and I am currently getting over a cold that has left me very congested. I've only applied to two colleges, I'm very picky, and so far one turned me down based on a screening tape. It was bad, I'll admit it. It wasn't destiny. Well, I'm going to brew myself a chai tea latte and get myself under covers so I can doze. Hopefully this will take some of the stress edge off.
*Nightie-night*
